Unhappy again.....why am i always unhappy??? cause i'm a fucker. Long time ago, when i'm in poly...whenever there's project, i'm always the fucker who did everything(for java parts) ignoring my friends feelings. Now i'm being treated that way in uni. Retribution???? Maybe.

In uni, I understand that in a group work, working together is more important then working alone, being a lone fighter. I know i can't work the way i did in poly. I know i can do some things, but i didn't. And thats because i realised the futility of doing so. ....I'M ALSO LAZY!!!!

You guys know why i'm pissed??? CAUSE MY EGO JUST GOT A BIG BIG HIT. I'm a freaking egoistic person, i can't stand ppl doing this to me. Its not the fault of that person, its me...my personality. I can't react in a positive manner. END OF RANT.

It seems to me that the purpose of this blog has become a place for me to voice my thoughts.

I was browsing through friendster just now, looking @ people i know, people i used to know....looking @ their pictures, their testimonials so on..... when looking @ those stuffs, i feel that alot around me has changed. Yes yes, i understand that people change all the time, but why do i feel that i'm still the same old me five years ago??? Why are people changing and i'm not? Why do i feel that my friends have all grown but i'm still like a kid?

hiaz....actually got more to say, but what i want to say is limited by standard of my english. Even if i type them out here, i doubt people wil understand what i'm trying to say..lol....

Anyway, very long nv update blog le, cause busy with school work and slp. Didn't have time to meet up with friends etc. Suddenly missed alot of my friends and regreted for not attempting to keep in touch with them. I guess i'm not a person who is very good in creating and maintaining friendship. Tat's all for now, got to go do my lab project if not confirm get humtum by qiuyan:P